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Sunday, January 02, 2011


I AM BACK!!

HAHAHA...

My apologies for going missing for the past 2.9 months.

Was super busy..

And...

I was having difficulties coping too..

It's much better now of course.

But there're still more improvements.

I really hope that my results can be good.

Sighs...

In HK now..

It's slightly different here.

Cus I'm much happier.:)

Shall post pictures in my next post.

Don't go okay!








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Saturday, October 16, 2010


Sorry for the lack of updates!

Was really busy with school.

Mid terms and meetings..

My recess week is totally packed!

But I know I didn't make the wrong decision.

:)

Oh..

A few weeks back, it was my sports ball!:)

And it was..

EXTREMELY FUN!

Theme for Katy: BACK TO SCHOOL!

Never once I was so HIGH.

HAHAHAHAHA..

Alright..

Back to work.:)
Eilllleeeeeeeennnnnnnn!!!!!
Katy guys!
Being hardworking with the MENU.
SUPERSTAR!:)
MUSIC:)
Pageant pageant..
My lovely BL Raphael. NEVER FAIL TO SUPPORT ME ALL THESE WHILE!
Senior MOMO
:)
VM LOVE!
Juniors (excluding Raphael) of 20th main comm!
Ex-VP and Tessa!


Do check up for more updates!


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Sunday, October 03, 2010


Will be back soon:)


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Sunday, September 12, 2010


UPDATESS!!!!

It's gonna be the 3rd week of school.

Physics is KILLING me.

Ohms Law...

Fd=??

Md=??

I don't deal with such physics in poly.

OMG...

I seriously need help.

I need to clear my doubts by THIS WEEK.

Can't accumulate them..

Well, well...

My dear Peiyi is such a nice lady.

She accompanied me to school on the first day as I know I'll get lost.

Called me during her break as she knows that I'm alone.

Ensuring that I'm not LOST!!

Haha..

Thanks alot my dear:)

~~~~~~~

Sports Bash was held 2 weeks back.

It was GREAT!

Just that I had to leave early as the king is back.

And I had lab the next day at 0830.

I was still staying in the east then.

The game that Kozun suggested was SUPER FUN!

All these made me forget the stress I was facing in school.

I do hope what the rest say is true.

That I'll soon find the syllabus easy.

I really hope so!!



Just the beginning..
Everyone was still "fine"
Here comes the games..Poor Rapheal!!
Music PAGEANT!!:)
SSSSSSSSLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!
Another music PAGEANT!!!:)
Beautiful Marlene and me:)
Starting to get HIGH!
Music GIRLS!!
Katy girls!
Kozun:)
That's Ray and Suyin:)
Yes Eileen. BITE!
KATY! ( Where's Yilong?)




~~~~~~~~

My new toy:)

LOVELY!!


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Thursday, August 19, 2010


Alright...

It's time to blog.

My voice just returned.

It went on holiday for more than a week.

~~~~~~

I attended sports camp on the 1st week of the month.

Initially, I wanted to back out.

But after pushing myself to stay for the 7 days,

I changed my view.

Made many new friends through this camp.

From a stranger, to someone who shares your burden.

I fell sick on the 4th day of the camp.

And it was the day where amazing race started.

The guys were really made me teared.

They offered to piggyback me up the stairs, down the slope.

The girls held took turns to hold my hands.

They would turn back and ask if I'm alright almost every min

GLs made sure I hydrate myself whenever we're at a pit-stop.

The 7 days were full of fun and laughters.

No regrets for staying till the last day.

I'm even stronger now.




From strangers..









to a great friend.


Thank you my dear katies!!


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Monday, July 12, 2010


Well...I thought of writing a post on what how I feel.

I am glad for who I am today.

So many things happening after I graduated from secondary school.



My girls were always there despite being busy with schoolwork.

I told them everything except for my health, my diet.

They didn't blame me.

Till today, I feel bad for letting them down.

Especially those empty promises made.

The stupid decision that I made to start dieting caused many to lose trust in me.

On one of those days in the 4th quarter of 2007, I went for an exhibition in school.

And I received a book on the calories in our daily food.

Initially, I just started to count based on our daily needs.

But I tend to chuck the book aside at times as I wanna enjoy my favorite food.

Peanut pancakes were my favorite tea time snack.

Selegie Tau Huay reminds me of those days in SRJC.

So the calories of these food won't affect me.

I started to stand on the weighing scale everyday.

The numbers remained the same. It's not decreasing.

I dislike it.



2007: Before dieting..

So I took out the book and was determined to lose 3kg.

After cutting down on the portion of food and eating more veg and fruits,

I achieved my target.

But looking at the models and artiste on TV and magazines,

I thought I should lose more.

And I'll sure look good.

1-2 months later, everyone said I was thin.

I was happy to hear that.( I guess I was insane)

But I still think that I need to lose more..

My Mum was angry, my Dad was shocked.

Timpani complained on my appearance everyday.

My friends told me to stop.

In my mind, I said I will..

I'll start tomorrow.

But tomorrow will still be tomorrow.

Each day, I'll repeat the same thing..


CNY 2008. I still think that I need to lose a little more..

It was a semester.

Night class started.

The truth was out..

My mum called one day..

I told her I ate.

But she wanted to talk to Valval, Eleen and YW.

And she found out the truth.

Things were bad

The next day, we went to my GP.

I told him I don't wanna be admitted to the hospital.

He said ok..If I were to listen to him.

I promised.

A week later, my weight increased by 1 kg with medication.

Everyone was happy.

But not me..

After 3 weeks,

I couldn't take it..

My weight started to increase.

I was scared..

How could it be..

I'll be overweight if I carry on like this..

I couldn't focus on anything..

My results were bad..

I kept complaining I was cold.

I felt leftout..

I decided to stop seeing my GP.

Of course, no more medication,

my weight decreased.

Yes, I gave up.

Grandma told my mum to bring me to her Chinese Physician.

And I said okay.

The "Good Tessa" keep telling me that I need to be well..

The "Bad Tessa" said my weight will keep increasing and increasing.

My first visit to the Chinese Physician,

I was scared.

It was the first time I felt like this..

He scolded me..

He said if I don't wanna take his medicine, don't bother seeking help for him.

He said my organs were not in a good state.

In other words, I'm dying..

I was sad.. But yet, I was scared..

What if I become super fat?

Why are my friends enjoying food but not me?

Why are my friends staying slim but not me?

Why am I constantly hungry?

I am glad that the people around me changed my thinking.

In school, they accompanied me in eating..

Valval scolded me for my actions at times..

To be frank, I was scared of her, but I know she meant well..

Mimi and Elsie accompanied me for my meals when we were out.

They showed me that eating isn't a sin.



They showed me how to enjoy food.

~~~~~~

As days passed, I was getting better,

It was really tough..

No, VERY VERY TOUGH!

I cried so many times..Over so many things.. Especially having night classes.

There were scoldings..

There were comforts..

There was 1 of those days of the night classes that I will never forget.

I cried in front of YW ..

WH, gave me a pat on my shoulder when I came out with YW..

I know I need to be better.

I can always remember this day.

Everyone lost trust in me..They were too tired..

But I know I will overcome all these..

I will gain the trust..

Till today, I can still remember those days..

But I know I will never let myself go back again..

No matter how..

It'll be the past..

And I'm happy with me today..

Year 2009, I was physically fine..

But the thoughts were still there..

Once again, there were so many things happening..

Being at home or in school..

Thank goodness I started attachment early..

Cousin Vivian hear me out, scolded me for those thoughts that I have at times..

I learnt so much from my job..

~~~~~

I joined Muaythai as i didn't have time to go back to school for training..

That's where I know Wilson..

And I got closer to Marcus and Hafiz..

In the later part of the year, I got to know Mervyn.

They never fail to be there.

And that's where I turned into supper too:)





~~~~~

Finally, we graduated..

We are on our own now.

Some of us will be studying..Some working..

The guys will move on to serve the nation.

But those days will always be remembered.

Especially how they helped me through the toughest time I had..

Tolerating my everything..



And today, I'm perfectly happy with my life..

Busy with work and preparation for school..

Catching up with what i missed for the past 2 years..

The numbers are still in my mind..

They can't be deleted.

But I'm stronger than before:)



I'll cherish everything that I have now..

My health and studies are my priorities.





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Thursday, July 08, 2010


I realized that things can be said better in person that text.

Miscommunication is unavoidable.

Life is not that simple afterall...






Beautiful accessories:)



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