Tessa:)

YFriday, May 23, 2008' 02:12

Why must things turn out to be like that? I do feel much better than the last time. Sorry to make you girls worry. There're really many favours whom I owe now. Before I can repay them, I'll have to overcome this thing by myself. They were the ones who stood by my side, encouraging me and not adding more stress to me. They didn't force me to do things that I didn't want to. They lend me their listening ears. They understand me. Thanks people.

I've realised that not only your family members will stand by your side when you're down. Your friends will also be there. These are your true friends. They never give up on you.Cherish the friendships.I'm really fortunate..I'm not fit to have such friends as I'm letting them down. I'm too fortunate. I'm given love and affections and yet, I'm not doing anything to cherish them. Sorry peeps..

I need to reflect. You're too good..Maybe there's a miscommunication between us. Is that true? I'm not sure. I do hope things will turn out to be better.

YSunday, May 18, 2008' 00:25

Hi people, well..Eleen invited us to her family's BBQ at East Coast Park yesterday's evening. Or maybe her mum invited us there. (laughs) It really helped me put all my thoughts away and enjoy myself.Eleen is one of my closest friend in NYP and will never fail to lend a listening ear to me. Thanks for being there girls. Same for the rest, ( inclusive of Yawee, Shermaine, Jasmine and not forgetting Valval) Eleen never likes to force one to do things. She respects our decisions but will still give us advice. Although her birthday is on the 19th May, she celebrated it today and we had lots of laughters. Words can't expressed much so I decided to use pictures to tell you what went on since a picture means a thousand words:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY:)

That's the Birthday girl, Eleen

Let's blow the candles

Shermaine and Jasmine

Tessa and Jasmine

Jasmine( trying to hide:))

Eleen and Yawee

Eleen and me:)

A random shot? (laughs)

Eleen's brother

YiQuan and Valval ( so loving:))

On her brithday.. (the perfect couple:))

Many things happened this week. I'm really tired. I can't talk to anyone about it as I really don't know how to express myself. I just don't know why I'm feeling this way. I know..I need to seek professional help but I would like to use my own ability to fight this battle. My parents are right. It all depends on me. Sometimes I really feel so helpless..I don't want my parents to worry..Who can I turn to? I'm afraid my friends would get irritated. I don't want my love ones to worry for me. What can I do? I'm lost..I know things won't be any better if I don't change my mindset. I've neglected him and really feeling bad. I'm the last to know.the mistake that I made..Alright, how I can go back to the good old days. Let me cope well with my studies and live my life happily.

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YSaturday, May 17, 2008' 00:33

I'm really tired..Do i really have a proble? I feel so wierd. Maybe I should stay away from everyone. I'm really confused. I categorise food and studies under the same caegory. I'm sick. Really sick. What's wrong? What went wrong? I'm not planning my time well..I can't take it anymore..I'm feeling so guilty..but I need to stay strong. I can't lose this battle. I overcome this by myself. It all depends on me. Forgive me people..

YFriday, May 02, 2008' 18:53

Time passes really fast. Everything is still the same. Everyone is worried. I sincerely apologize to everyone who is worried for me. I'm trying my best to pull through. It's really tough..I really hope to get out of this. Sometimes I feel ok but sometimes I'm not. What's wrong? It's affecting my studies. I don't wish to be like that. I need to stay strong. I can overcome this. Give me some time. I believe it'll be over soon. I'm sorry to let you girls down. Sorry Eleen, sorry Shermaine, sorry Yawee, sorry Valene...

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