YThursday, July 31, 2008' 22:12
Kind of slow but this is on Rachel's birthday
Wanessa and Wessa reunite.
A bear and a seal (after 2 years)
Birthday cake
BLOW
Crestians
Ceramics
Ceramics #2
The one who will always support me
Labels: Pictures on Rachel's birhtday
YSaturday, July 26, 2008' 01:16
Hey there, sorry for not updating my post for such a long time. Well, I'm rather busy woth reports and the upcoming presentation and of course, tests! And yes..it's indeed killing me. (laughs) Guess what, I'm starting to hate the school food. Ate Yong Tau Foo twice this week. Not going to do it again for next week. Shall cut down Yong Tau Foo if possible:X from planning now. Can the exams just pass fast. I need to rest. Too many things happening this semester..I'm taking far too long to eat these days. When I eat with the girls, I feel scared as my speed is far too slow. I felt pressured at times. Why can't I eat faster? Why?
Daddy went back a few days back. He gave me a deadline, which is December. If there's still no change in me, I will just stay in Singapore instead of going overseas. I'm trying my best not to let this happen. I want to go to Shanghai but Daddy just won't allow. I'm to be blame for all these..Went to shop for my presentation outfit today. Those pants doesn't fit me. I look so ugly in them. I was so mad at myself. I can't blame anyone but only me.
Felt quite lonely at times. Especially when I'm in school. I wanna leave this place fast. I wanna leave here and let things start anew. I regret planning so much..I can't stop myself
Everyone is tired of me. Soon, I'll be alone.Everyone will start to keep away from me..I miss Peiyi and the rest suddenly.
YTuesday, July 15, 2008' 18:52
Not feeling so good today. I must not find excuses. I must be serious about this. I must not be selfish. Thank you so much Valval. You were right. I'm being selfish. Too selfish..Always looking for excuses to make myself feel better. Always saying I'm stubborn and not taking the first step. I thought I'd woke up. But she told me it's just a little. Reflecting on my actions, yes. It's only a little. I'm thinking for myself. I always fear my family won't have enough food for themselves. I'm afraid I'll over-eat where I'm not. What am I doing?Valval's words will always be waking me up. Stopping me from those stupid actions that I was going to take. My reflections in the mirror will always be the one that that stopped this actions. I need to change my eating habits. Thanks for being there for me Valval, thanks for those words. I was wrong about so many things. I'm sorry people. I'm sorry to make you guys sacrifice. Sorry Mummy, sorry Daddy, sorry Timpani. Mummy changed her cooking style because of me. Till now, she needs to seek approval from me of what she's cooking for dinner. This shouldn't be the way. I should be eating whatever she's cooking.
I want to shop. Those dresses are so beautiful, the shorts are on sale. T-shirts are so attractive..I can't wear them now. I looked horrible. Why am I not aware of this until the end of the day? Why must I always regret just at the end of the day where all the stupid actions had been taken earlier? Why must I always stare at that sandwich and just walked away where I know i would like to have it for breakfast? Why am I planning for meals? I must change! Thousands and millions of times I'd said this. I must take actions NOW. TESSA TANG! WAKE UP NOW!
YFriday, July 11, 2008' 02:28
That's it.Enough of all nonsense. Everything will stop here. Daddy is going to be back home today. Please, don't PLAN! Just leave each day as it passes. Better know what to do now before it's too late...
YWednesday, July 09, 2008' 20:33
Tuesday..
Today is the day of labs. This shows that we need to complete lab reports. Went to MMichelle's house after that as I need to borrow a black formal dress. In the end, I got more:) Thank you Da Jie:) We chatted for awhile and I left at around 6 plus.. Her house was indeed a nice place to chill. Looking forward to the next visit but I don't think she'll be free theses days. Enjoy talking to you :)
Michelle
The both of us
Taken by her
Wednesday
Wednesday
We had our presentation today. Well, I think I did badly, or maybe indeed, I did badly. Sorry my group mates! I let you guys down. It was a n all dress day and yes, the girls wore dress:) Beautiful ladies..(laughs)
In dresses
Big Sister Yawee and Sister Eleen:)
Had my dinner just now. Mummy cooked rice. I ate one bowl of it. It's been a long time since I last did that at home. I wonder whether it was a little too much after eating. Come to think of it, I ate more than that last time and nothing was wrong:) Don't worry people, I'm doing fine. I want back those days and I will make it come true. I'll overcome this:) Thanks for being there peeps!
YSunday, July 06, 2008' 09:35
Hi peeps, here to blog again. Had training yesterday but it was more of a rehearsal for the performance on Saturday. But I think we were busy taking photos instead of focusing on training itself.(laughs) Trained down to meet Chris at Cine after training. Had a great talk with Yawee on our way there. She did not give up n me all this while. Thanks girl:)Called Valval in the night as I wasn't feeling good. She's indeed a good listener and advisor. It was Mummy's birthday yesterday. I still owe her a present. (oopx:X)Time to save up too. Had been spending alot these days.I'm addicted to icer cream theses days. Can't live my life without it. (laughs)
That's the right way to kick:)
The threesome
Jasmine
Say cheese
Eleen's blurry shot
Don't try fool around with us:)
This is BQD
Tiger LILY!
Kicks:)
Training is starting soon:)
The potential kick-boxers:)
Zhen Wei and me ( * all the best to you:))
Sometimes I really wonder what I'm doing is right. I'm sorry. I tried all ways to find time but schoolwork has been occupying it. It's hard for me to meet you after school as I need to reach home earlier and it's tough as the distance is too far. I'm sorry. Maybe this is why we didn't communicate much. I tried my best. Give me time to work out this problem. I'm on my own. Peiyi and Kaiwei can't always be there for me 24 hours. I need to be self-reliant. Learn to lead a healthy life. Don't ruin it peeps. I miss erebus 5. I miss Ken's jokes and Jeremy's crap. When can we meet-up? Can we go back to those days? Saw Weixiong at subway yesterday. He asked me what happen. I couldn't answer. I will bring those days back. I'm turning 18 soon. No longer a little girl who needs guidance for everything. Time to stand up for youself Tessa.
This is my big brother Howard:)
This is my big brother Howard:)
Valval
Sher jiejie
Labels: Rehearsal
YFriday, July 04, 2008' 19:35
Hi there, went orchard with mummy today. Had Thai express for lunch. The tom yam is nice butnot the prawn panckes. Went to for traiing yesterday for a short meeting. I finally say GORGEOUS!I miss her so much..School is still alright and I think it's time to learn how to study hard and play hard. Yes..I want the good old days back. I must makeit come true. I must have the determination. I miss them..I miss so many people. I miss Daddy..
SHIFU:)
Ronald looks shock!
I found this picture
Labels: Another friday
YTuesday, July 01, 2008' 22:08
It was the official oppening for subways's 50th outlet and all subway outlet igave a 50% off for all 6-inch sandwiches :) Of course, the girls, eleen, yawee, sher, jas, valval and brother pokee came along. I had my veggie delite of course and the rest had subway meltz except for yawee, who ate meatball marinara instead. Why am I having veggie delite? Cos there're no other choices for me except for the beef, which doesn't seem nice at all. I'm actually in love with this song, Thank God I found you, by Mariah Carey, 98 degrees .laughs)
Thank you for not giving up foron me people. I need to wake up and I will. No more counting.=s. Please people, if I count, I'll have to eat them. Love to enjoy food. Love your friends and family. I felt guilty. Why should I be so selfish? Suddenly i miss Daddy. He's coming back soon..I don't want him to worry..I don't want any of my family members to worry. Som many things happening theses days. Why should I get so tensed up nowadays? I miss those secondary school days or maybeI miss the SRJC days. I had nothing to worry, notheing to fear. We had fun. Look at me now. Everyone stared at me when I'm on the street. I know..I reuse to say.
I don't deserve to be loved by anyone. I made so many people worry. Sorry guys, sorry Chris. I know you guys meant well for me but I refuse to listen and s=choose to be stubborn. Yes, I'm giving excuses again. I love dressing up but eversince I got into this stage, I couldn't buy nice clothes, I could hardly shop. What's wrong with food? Please move on Tessa, don't give up now. Its just the beginning. Let's strive harder. We can make it there. Don't let the others lose trust in you. Don't be scared. We're all eating well. Let the food be scared of us instead. Let's get back to the good old days:)
